now is 1am. yet there are so many things runnin through my mind...i cant stop dem from goin round and round...new job,future,him,health....why humans haf to go through so much thinkin..sometimes i just hope someone can just b my decision maker and plan everything for mi..i jus do as said..or mayb someone jus stab me now,i die den nv to come to this place again...i just feel so tired abt thinkin..been sometime since i broke-down again today..once something starts goin round,others will start comin in causin a bogus in the mind..i just hate such feelin to occur..it jus sucks so much..

wenever u need something,yet u cant get it.why is it so?
wenever u need understandin from e surroundin,yet u dun get it.why is it so?
wenever u need someone,yet u dunno who to approach.why is it so?
wenever u need comfort,yet u cant find its pressence except on e bed.why is it so?

i am going back to my old self...cant i continue to b my new self,confident,appreciative,open to speak-up and comments,cheerful? why i am holdin back so much now? unwilling to share my tots openly causin bogus in my mind..am i scare to create trouble for ppl again like the old me? why it is so? why?

so many why..is everyone life full of why?

7/08/2006 12:48:00 AM ·